Sunday, June 7, 2015

Zuviel Liebe (Germany x Reader): Tanz in den Tod

Konichiwa!  I'm so sorry it's been ages since I've posted! Gomenasai! *bows deeply*  It seems as though I've been really busy lately...  I've gotten the story up to date on Quotev now and I need to make sure to keep you guys on track, too!  I have several new stories started, as well, so I will start trying to post those as I have time.  Ah...  I'm not very good at keeping my promises to you reader-sans lately...  You also may hate me after reading this chapter of the story...  I didn't mean for it to turn into a songfic, but it kind of just happened.  I was listening to the song "Tanz in den Tod" by Oomph! (of course) while I was writing and I realized that the song was almost exactly what I was planning on writing, so I just had to include it.  Here's a link to a YouTube video of the song if you want to hear it.  It's up there in probably my top 10 favorite Oomph! songs.
Quick warning: there is some lime-ish content (implies lemon action but nothing explicit) and some foul language.  If that bothers you, then I'd recommend not reading it.
Sorry for the brevity, but I hope you enjoy the update.  I should have a few more shorter stories coming your way soon and one that I'm planning on turning into a longer story involving Soviet Russia...  Please look forward to it! ^_^


- Turtle-chan




                You hum to yourself as you wash the dishes from dinner.  For some reason, this one song has been stuck in your head for weeks, playing on an infinite loop. It’s quite ominous and that fact combined with the continued strange behavior of the boys and your lack of sleep has put you on edge.


                Dünnes eis…  Ein Paradies für jeden… Der zu tanzen weiss…” you sing under your breath, shivering at the hissing nature of the song.  Tanz in den tod!”


                “What’s that you’re singing, (y/n),” a high voice asks from behind you.  You jump slightly before turning around to meet Italy’s eyes.  Yes, to meet his eyes.  He’s had them open more and more lately and they’ve started to look less hazel and more… pink.  Or maybe red.  You’re a little too unnerved to look at them for very long.  It’s like staring into an empty void.


                “Oh, just a song that’s been stuck in my head.  Was I disturbing you?” you respond, trying for a light, flippant tone despite the tension gathering in your shoulders and stomach.  You still have a bruise from the last time you said the wrong thing in front of him.


                “No, I suppose not,” he says, walking toward the door.  “I’m going out.  I’ll be back eventually.”


                “Alright, Italy.  Have fun,” you respond, turning back to the dishes.  As soon as he’s gone, you feel yourself shiver.  He’s been going out right after dinner every night and not returning until sometime in the early morning.  He’s also been insisting on making his own pasta sauce, saying he has a special ingredient he wants to put in it.


                Lost in your thoughts, you once again don’t hear footsteps as someone approaches from behind you.  A pair of strong arms wraps around your waist, pulling your body against something hard and warm.  You let out a gasp as you feel a pair of lips caress the crook of your neck.


                “G-Germany?” you exclaim, confused and shocked.


                “Mmh?” he growls, planting soft kisses up to your jawbone.


                “W-what are you doing?” you ask him, feeling your face heat up as you slowly dry your hands on a towel.


                “Vhat?  I’m not allowet to kiss you?” he asks, pausing for a moment before trailing kisses back down your neck.  His hands have slid down to your hips and he is rubbing small, slow circles on them with his large thumbs.


                “W-well, it’s not that I mind really, but why?” you ask in response.  You’re struggling to keep your head clear, trying not to focus on his lips on your neck and his hands on your hips.  His hard, muscled body against your back.


                “Bekause I vant to,” he tells you.  “Kome vis me.”


                He takes your hand and leads you down the hallway and into his office, only bothering to lock the door and turn on the desk lamp before pulling you to him and kissing you, on the lips this time.  His lips are rough and hungry against yours, crushing and frenzied.  He licks your bottom lip seductively and you start to pull away, embarrassed.  He only pulls you closer, pressing his tongue harder and harder against your mouth until you have to open it to breathe.  Taking his chance, he snakes his tongue inside, caressing every surface of your mouth.


                You don’t realize you’ve been moving backward until your legs hit the edge of the sofa.  Germany leans over you and you fall backward onto it, Germany supporting your body and slowing your fall.  At this point, your mind is blank and all you can think about is Germany’s kiss and how much you want him.  Your hands reach up to slide through his soft blonde hair.


                “Ah~!” you moan as he breaks away for air and starts kissing down your neck and collarbone, feeling heat rush to your cheeks but unable to keep the noise in.


                You can do nothing but lie on the sofa and stroke his hair as he traces his lips lower and lower.  As his kisses move down your body, so do his hands.  They started out at your waist, but they’re slowly moving toward your hips.  His lips are at your collarbone now and he’s kissing and sucking at the delicate skin.  And his hands keep moving as well.  They’re at your hips one moment, now they’re almost to your…  To your…!


                You let out a gasp and push Germany away, sitting up suddenly.  “I-I’m sorry!” you exclaim as you stand up and run to unlock the door.  When you glance back at Germany, he is sitting on the sofa, looking disoriented.  He looks up at you as you leave and you have to hold back a scream when you notice that one of his eyes is blue while the other is now violet.


                Without a second glance, you charge up the stairs to your bedroom, only focusing on your goal.  Your bedroom door is in sight when you hear Japan speak up.


                “What is the rush, (y/n)-san?” he asks.  You stop dead in your tracks and turn around to see him leaning against a wall, blending into the shadows with his black clothes.  When did he start wearing black?


                “Ah, Japan,” you breathe, pasting a shadow of a smile on your lips.  “I just felt like doing a little practical training.  That’s all.”


                “Hmm…” is his response.  He pushes himself off of the wall and sidles over to you, examining you closely as he does so.  In one swift movement, he’s standing in front of you, holding your chin in one hand and forcing you to look at him.  “I would like to draw you.  That blush and the fear in your eyes…  Yes, I would like to make you hurt more.”  He shows you a sly, sadistic grin before letting you go.  You notice what looks to be a tattoo peeking out from under his kimono and you wonder how long it’s been there since you had never noticed it before.  “Well, carry on.”


                You wait until Japan walks away, back into his own bedroom before charging into yours.  You lock the door firmly behind you and then curl up on the bed.  Eventually, you manage to drift off to sleep and as you do, your mind is haunted with the words, “Alles löst sich auf…   Alle Gefühle - alle Visionen…  Komm und küss den Lauf…  Öffne den Mund und lass dich belohnen…”


~ ~ ~


                It is pitch black when you wake up again.  You sit up and rub your eyes slowly, stretching out your cramped muscles.  You aren’t quite sure what it is that woke you up, but the air feels heavy and thick.  You stand up, wrapping a blanket around your shoulders as a defense against the cold that seems to be seeping in from under your door, and look out the window into the darkness.


                The moon is full and red and it hangs bloated over the horizon, a barren tree on the hill silhouetted against its eerie light.  You don’t see any stars in the sky and you entertain the brief, gruesome thought that the moon ate them all.  Shivering at the image, you turn away and start to go back to bed when you hear a knocking at your door.  Realizing you locked it earlier, you quickly shuffle over and unlock it, opening it to peer out into the darkness.


                “Hello, sunflower,” a familiar voice says to you from the pitch-black hallway.


                “Russia?  Is that you?” you call out in the direction of the voice.  You can’t see a thing, but it feels like there’s more than one person outside the door.


                You see a large, black-gloved hand emerge from the darkness, palm upward and fingers outstretched toward you.  “You will be coming with me, da?”


                Hesitantly, you take his hand and allow him to lead you out of the relative light and safety of your room and into the darkness pervading the rest of the house.  Even through the glove, his hand feels cold, the same cold of the house.  You begin to shiver through your blanket.


                It doesn’t take long for the two of you to reach the door in the kitchen and all you can see of Russia as he leads you out is the shadowy outline of his back.  As soon as you step out of the house, however, you know something is wrong.  You try to pull your hand away, but Russia grips it tighter.  When he looks down at you expresionlessly, you notice two things.  One, his hair is now a dark color, either brown or black.  Two, his eyes are blood-red.


                You start to scream, but a hand is clapped over your mouth from behind you until you are silent.  The hand is removed briefly and something small and saccharine sweet is stuffed into your mouth.  A cupcake?  You try not to swallow it, but you can’t help it and it doesn’t take long for the world to start fading away.  The last thing you remember seeing is the huge moon in the sky burning to the soundtrack in your head.  “Nimm meine Hand…  Lass uns brennen…”


                                                                                                   ~ ~ ~                       


                When you come to, you find that you are unable to move.  Your limbs are bound, your arms behind you and your legs tied at the ankles, and a gag is in your mouth.  Immediately, you begin to panic, thrashing around to no avail.  The flailing does nothing, however, and the gag makes it hard to breathe so you’re forced to hold still and wait.


                Looking around the room, you notice that it looks almost exactly identical to the one from your nightmare a while back and the bone-chilling cold is even worse than back at Germany’s, which you didn’t think was possible.  You can literally see your breath in the air and you’re willing to bet that your fingers are blue, but you’re tied up and it’s too dark to tell anyway.  The only light entering the room comes from the blood-red moon outside of a small window.  There are iron bars covering the window and the moonlight makes a pattern on the floor.  There is no furniture in the room at all except for an old, disheveled mattress.  You inchworm your way over to the darkest corner of the room that’s the furthest from the door.  You’re almost positive that it’s locked and you intuitively know that you don’t want to find out what’s on the other side.  Fate would have it otherwise, though, and you hear the sound of the door being unlocked.


                You cower further back into your corner as the door swings open to reveal more darkness.  You can’t see them, but you feel like there are at least two people in the hallway.  You hear footsteps approaching you and you feel like your heart is going to beat right out of your chest.  Someone is standing right in front of you, but you still can’t see him.  A large, calloused hand grips your upper arm and you’re thrown into the pool of moonlight.  You land on your knees, but lose your balance and go sprawling across the floor on your stomach.  Tears prick at your eyes as you try to push yourself back up without being able to use your hands.


                Someone grabs your hair and uses it to wrench your head back roughly.  You find yourself staring up into the smirking face of a teenage boy with short brown hair and deeply tanned skin.  “Fuck yeah!  Look at this bitch!  How’d you know crying girls all tied up really get me goin’?” he exclaims, his teeth standing out a bright white against the rest of him.  “Maybe yer not all bad, ya fuckin’ Commie bastard.”


                The last is directed at the second person in the room, the man who is Russia but not Russia.  He stands there impassively by the door, a look of faint disgust on his otherwise expressionless face.  “I am locking the door.  Just knock when you are finished,” he responds, not even glancing in your direction as he leaves the room.  You hear the locks click back into place and you look up again, wide-eyed, at your new enemy.


                He smirks down at you, crimson eyes sparkling behind his dark sunglasses.  He picks you up and slings you over his shoulder in an instant before throwing you down none too gently on the mattress.  “Let’s just see what kind of trouble we can get into, huh, bitch?” he grins as he slips off his battered leather jacket.  “We have time, but I don’t know if I feel fuckin’ patient today.”


                You close your eyes and tense your muscles in preparation for what you know will amount to one of the most horrific experiences of your life.  The man climbs on top of you and begins undoing the buttons on your shirt slowly.  You stare up at the ceiling blankly and wonder if you’ll ever see Germany, the Germany you know and love, again.  The song is there again, on an infinite loop and you focus on the words and images in your head to block out reality.  Tanz in den Tod.   Kommst du mit mir, spielst du mit mir.  Tanz in den Tod.  Im ewigen dunkel, werd ich dich wiedersehen?”


~~~


                You feel violated in every sense of the word.  The things you’ve endured, the tortures and the brutalities, aren’t fit to be repeated.  It’s something no one should know, no one should feel.  As you lie there on that mattress, your limbs bound and numb, your naked body covered in cuts and bruises, blood trickling down your cheeks like tears, you feel broken.


                Everything is blank.  Your mind is empty and you feel nothing.  No emotions, no pain.  It’s all completely gone.  Decimated.  Maybe you should be grateful for the numbness, but is it really such a blessing?  You’re like a completely different person now.  You’ve died.  The old you is gone and a newer, stronger version of you is being born.


                Downstairs you can hear the sound of a struggle, breaking and crashing and shouting.  Footsteps pound up the steps and down the hall.  The doorknob giggles and you hear a deep voice that was so familiar to the old you calling out, “(y/n)?  (y/n)!  Just holt on, (y/n)!  I am komink for you!”


                How fitting.  The hero arrives just at the moment of the heroine’s death.  A last goodbye is even stolen from them.  You let out a hoarse, croaking laugh and begin to sing through cracked and bloodied lips.  “Alles wird vergehn.  All deine schmerzen --alle Dämonen--und die zeit bleibt stehen.  Liebe kennt mehr als vier Dimensionen…”


~~~


                The pounding on the door and the shouts from outside continue for what seems like hours but in reality is only a period of about fifteen minutes.  Then, the noise ceases and you hear the locks falling away.  The door bursts, open, but you don’t bother to look at the person that enters.  Footsteps swiftly approach the mattress and someone kneels down next to you.  Your eyes slide listlessly over to his face.


                Blonde hair, disheveled.  Blue eyes, emotional.  Strong jaw, sharp cheekbones.  Yes, you recognize him.  The old you would know him anywhere.  As your eyes meet, he lets out a sigh and smiles tightly down at you, relieved.


                “Thank Gott,” he breathes, bending down to embrace you.  “You’re alive.”


                As soon as his fingers brush your skin, you feel something in your snap.  The new you begins to take over and you let out a piercing shriek, curling in on yourself after slapping him away.  You tangle your fingers in your matted hair and pull at it frantically.  “DON’T.  TOUCH.  MEEEEEE!” you scream, gripped with indescribable terror.  His touch brings back all of the memories of the things you endured at the hands of… the others.  Your brain can’t handle it and you just shut down.


                You notice, somewhere, somehow, the look of confusion which quickly melts into a look of sorrow and pity and hurt on Germany’s face when you first slap him away.  Most of you doesn’t care, however.  In the back of your mind, the new you chuckles at the last thought the old you had.  Nichts auf der Welt kann uns trennen, indeed…”

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